what am i doing?

 We all ask ourselves this question on a regular basis. Maybe it's as simple as asking yourself why you came into a room to a huge picture of what you are doing in this life. I am at the huge picture point in my life...actually have been for a long time. 

I thought I would be in such a different place-just like most of the human population. I believed I was finally on my way to doing what I fell in love with over 5 years ago, but that has bombed out. So now I am unemployed, bringing in no money, stressed to the max from the family front to the work front. 

I need to find the passion that I had a couple years ago. I need to feel that I can succeed in this industry if I just get a chance. I need to make that chance happen. I need to believe that I will obtain my goals. But dammit, talk is so much easier than action, right?

Well now that I whined and cried a bit, as my mother in law would say, time to pull up my (pink) boot straps and get on with it.

​So here it goes....